I know its absolutely silly for me to feel so forlorn but I do. On the one hand I know she will love it and it will be so good for her. she is in need of some social interaction. I also know that I will love it soon too with a little time to myself , but for now I feel downhearted.
Perhaps its because Lily and I have been constantly together since she was conceived. I have been far away from family and friends who would have her for a few hours so its just been me and her. when I have been away she stays with her daddy.
Now someone else will have a little part of her. They will see how she reacts to something funny or sad. I wont be there to laugh with her or wipe her tears. I know slowly I will lose more and more time with her and I am well aware that that is my job. to prepare her for life.
a small part of me in the background cant wait to see what she will learn and what she will bring home for me to stick on our fridge , but I think that part may stay hidden for a week or two whilst I adjust. So for now I am forlorn.
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Oh Wendy - Chin up Chick!... I know how you feel as I have been there to, and I think it's a good thing to feel a bit of pain in separation as you will experience the joy of reunion. And when she runs to you to tell you all about her day it adds a new dimension - you're her mum and THE most important person to her! Soon you'll revel in her independance
Kerrith
You communicated your conflicting feelings so eloquently.
Hugs from far away...
- Lee
I totally understand how you feel. It is a good idea to start her off slowly until she is used to it and then in the end she will enjoy it and as you say you will enjoy the time to yourself. Know that these 3 years of being a full-time mom with her will stand her in good stead though. You have done a great job xx
Good luck for Friday!! I will be thinking about you. You will be sad in the beginning, it's perfectly normal. Lily, on the other hand, will probably be very excited about it! She's going to love being with other kids and she's going to learn and grow so much. It's wonderful to watch them becoming their own little people.
Still, good luck...
Lots of love,
Susie xxx
PS. A word of warning - it gets worse. I can't believe my baby will be starting grade 1 in just over a year's time. And my heart is already sad for that day!
PPS. The letter for Uncle Paul's has arrived. I've made a copy to drop off at your mom. I'll try get there this afternoon. X
geeesh , i read your header and thought you cut her hair!!!!
:-)
greetings from amsterdam
It is a really hard thing to do, this letting go. I.m sure it will all be fine in the end, but just lots of learning curves for you both. Good luck...and don't cry! ( Of course you will but that's ok just not in front of Lily!)
No cutting those curls off Cis would be FAR worse hee hee.
wish you could take some photos of her for me now
xx
and thank you everyone for all your comments and kind words . Its been really uplifting . will let you know how it goes and exactly how pathetic I am
xx
Doesn't matter when we let them go for the first time - it is always going to be so difficult. We all love our babies so much and only want the best for them. As soon as you see how much she loves it it will help you and get easier every day. And plus you get to miss her and you will appreciate your time together so much more.
Lots of love xxx Ron
I read this and all the lovely comments doing the Wendy cry!!!! I am miles and miles and miles away and yet I too feel heavy hearted. The same feeling I had all through your school lives when the holidays were over and you went back to school. Those apron strings are never really cut...they become a wee bit invisable at times but they are always there and that is how it should be. Wish I could be there to comfort you and have a cuppa tomorrow morning...know this I will be there in sprit Wendy and Kristian. Mum xxxx
susie! so excited about uncle paul!!!! thank you thank you
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