Thursday, September 25, 2008

finally..

I have found a class / activity that Lily and I love. Its called diddi dancing. today we danced ,played with hula hoops, played with ribbons and countless other fun things with a lovely lady named Anne Marie. Lily was a bit tentative but I can see she will love it eventually as she started loosening up a bit at the end.

Some things occurred to me last night. Firstly , don't think when you are tired and laying beside your child trying to get her to calm down and go to sleep after a bad dream.
Secondly, When your baby is born they will never need you as much as they do on that day. These helpless little bundles that need you to do everything for them. From that moment we , as parents , are on a journey. A journey where every day our child becomes more and more independent and we ,as good parents ,must let them learn their own life lessons. We have to let them socialise and make friends knowing full well that on day they will be hurt in some way. They will have experiences that we will have no knowledge of. They will go off to school and we will not know how they react or how they feel.

So I say.. HOMESCHOOLING!!
No not really but I tell you I cried. I cried because my child is 2 and I can feel she is ready for more than just me. She tottered off yesterday in waterstones book shop and sat in this fake rocket thing with another little girl a little older than her. She wanted to go she was intrigued by this child. I watched on from afar as she chatted and laughed and they pretended to go to mars ( not Lilys idea I hasten to add) when her little friend had to go she was crestfallen and I was crestfallen for her. I cant help but think that this will be one of many times where I will cry for my daughter nevertheless I feel so privileged that this job has been given to me and I will be her guide and friend through it all. When she was born someone said to me congratulations she will be your best friend forever. I so hope that's true.

4 comments:

Pink Granite said...

Moms and Dads are amazing!
If it's any comfort, at fifty years of age, I still love chatting and visiting with my Mom!
;o)
- Lee
P.S. The Diddi Dancing sounds like great fun!

purpleronnie said...

The growing up bit is too scary. On the days where I feel trapped under my baby as she won't let me leave her I remember the words of all the mummmies I know that soon she will not want to lie with me and I will beg her, and then I appreciat it more
xxxxx

Fiona said...

Oh bugger, here I go again, crying!!!! Every hurt and joy they experience, you experience it too. You are 31 and I 59 and I still have that. When you are happy, I am happy when you are sad, me too!!! That's life when you love your spouse, children etc. You and I have been best friends for years, you will have the same with Lily of that there is no doubt. Love you "this much" Mum xxxxxxxxx

Anonymous said...

I am so glad you have found a class you both like! It sounds like fun. I think my mom told you that as she said the same thing to me and I also hope it will be true. We are lucky we have daughters to share this bond with. Oh, and I think homeschooling isn't such a bad idea...