I told Kristian this morning that the last time I have felt so emotionally out of control is after lily was born and all those hormones were racing about. I miss my little girl. she is gone for 6 hours a day and that's a long time.
However I am happy to report that it seems to be going well. The school is delightful as is her teacher. they have been having a little rest everyday and she has been playing with a host of different children. Her highlights have been the sleep on the pillow on the mat listening to music , playing princesses with rosy and "china girl" (how pc.. sigh.. I'm trying to find out her name) and the singing lessons with the headmistress on the piano. she is apprehensive each morning and is a bit shocked that she must go every day! this leads to me being so tearful all the way through till 3:15 until pick up, then she is full of stories and chatting to her school friends which lifts my spirits, until the next morning...
you get the picture. I'm up and down
She has been so shattered as well as you imagine so I'm adjusting her bedtime to suit that.
My life has changed overnight , but some things have become so clear. I love being Lily's mum and I want to be there for her all through this next school chapter of her life. I want to be present in school holidays and after school. Many people have asked me if I will go back to work now but I wont. personally I want to be there to take her and pick her up from school. I know that's not possible for everyone but I will do my best to make sure its like that for me and lily and Kristian. therefore my entrepreneurial skills will have to be employed to make some money.
thanks for listening to my emotional waffling..
5 comments:
my kind of mummy, I never regret the time spent with the children, watching our kids and their friends growing up (in good old Edgemead of course).Keep up the good work
Louise
I have been thinking so much about you and Lily and am glad it is going well for her. You are a brilliant mom and I totally empathise and feel for you and the difficulty of letting go. If you are oversensitive, it is a good thing because it means you have taken your job as a mommy seriously and loved and cared for your little girl with all your heart and might. Everyone is different, some moms are happy to see their kids go, but you are not one of them and all the better for Lily. It is no wonder you miss her as the two of you have been each other's companions for 4 years, so go easy on yourself. I am sure you will adapt as she settles in. Much love and hugs to you xxx
I know what a hard week it has been for you, you are on an emotional roller coaster and I am sure it will level out sooner rather than later. I made lots of sacrifices to stay home with you and Andrew but would do exactly the same if I had that time over again. As I have told you over and over again, bringing up your children is the most important job in the world, and I would have to say the most difficult and stressful job as well. Your ever devoted mother ;))) xxxxx
You have a wise and lovely woman as your mother!
I don't think it's oversensitive. It sounds like a loving mom in the midst of an enormous change. That change is also happening away from the home of your heart, South Africa. Not easy, not easy at all.
I admire your desire to be there for Lily. Good luck as you sort out how to meet all those other needs as well.
- Lee
What an emotional post - I really feel for you. It's always tough letting go of our babies and heavens knows that the last week has been tough for us too. Our day is much shorter here though - Jake is only at school until 1pm (12:30 until the 31st), which makes a huge difference.
Just try focus on the positive that comes with Lily learning new things - this is such an exciting adventure for them!
I hope that this week goes better for you, you will settle into a routine soon enough.
Sending lots of love and a huge hug,
Susie XXX
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