I have finally come to accept that I must allow life to flow in the way it wants to because if I try and change the flow we have a flood. I also have accepted that I made all the decisions that led me to the point I am at now and without those decisions I would have no beautiful daughter and lovely husband.
That said I have these bad days when I miss my life In south Africa so much. The worst times are around special occasions like Birthdays or Christmas. This week Caroline at Rhymes and reasons had a little girl that turned 3. I sat at home yesterday while everyone wished her and was together. Last week Lily turned 4 and My parents , my brother and my close friends missed it. It takes me a good few days after said events to lift myself up and continue as normal.
In my heart I know the time will come in the next couple of years when i will be back in Cape Town as that's where I want to be and all this will be a distant memory but for now I will be sad for a couple of days and then get on with my life here trying to do and see as much as possible.
You see I'm learning.
6 comments:
Dear Wendy
It's sad I know. You are one of the few people I know who values the bond of family and friends. I can only imagine how much you miss being part of the circle. Perhaps it will comfort you to know that you are missed by a lot of people and that the circle is not complete without you!
This post just made me want to blub. I know it sucks wends, there is no way of getting round that and I do hope one day you will be able to share these special occasions with all the people you love. miss you too xx
I feel that science should really concentrate on developing a transporter so that we can at any time shout "Beam me up Scottie" and visit our loved ones far away. We say it gets easier but in truth.........
Ooooh it makes my heart feel so heavy darling. However, as my Dad used to say Que Sera Sera, we can push and shove as much as we like but life will take its course and when and if it must happen it will. Lets just be thankful for the phone/skype and whatever other tool keeps us close watching over one another and lets focus on "the next time" Love you so much Mum xxx
I don't know how you expats do it.
You are far braver and more adventurous than I.
You know I went through a rough few years and a bad first marriage. But I'll be darned if I can figure out any other happier path that would have gotten me to the job, in the city and state, where I met Chuck!
I'm happy that you are able to get out and enjoy London and England while you are living there.
Who knows, some of those memories may some day warm your heart when you are back in your beloved Cape Town.
Hugs from far away...
- Lee
I don't envy you, I could never be as brave as you. I feel so sad that you are missing out on these precious moments with your friends and family, but at least you know that one day, you'll be back here! Keep smiling and looking forwards to that 'next time'. Lots of love XXX
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